it。 I sought the Continent; and went devious through all its lands。 My fixed desire was to seek and find a good and intelligent woman; whom I could love: a contrast to the fury I left at Thornfield—”
“But you could not marry; sir。”
“I had determined and was convinced that I could and ought。 It was not my original intention to deceive; as I have deceived you。 I meant to tell my tale plainly; and make my proposals openly: and it appeared to me so absolutely rational that I should be considered free to love and be loved; I never doubted some woman might be found willing and able to understand my case and accept me; in spite of the curse with which I was burdened。”
“Well; sir?”
“When you are inquisitive; Jane; you always make me smile。 You open your eyes like an eager bird; and make every now and then a restless movement; as if answers in speech did not flow fast enough for you; and you wanted to read the tablet of one’s heart。 But before I go on; tell me what you mean by your ‘Well; sir?’ It is a small phrase very frequent with you; and which many a time has drawn me on and on through interminable talk: I don’t very well know why。”
“I mean;—What next? How did you proceed? What came of such an event?”
“Precisely! and what do you wish to know now?”
“Whether you found any one you liked: whether you asked her to marry you; and what she said。”
“I can tell you whether I found any one I liked; and whether I asked her to marry me: