by him; roused from the nightmare of parting—called to the paradise of union—I thought only of the bliss given me to drink in so abundant a flow。 Again and again he said; “Are you happy; Jane?” And again and again I answered; “Yes。” After which he murmured; “It will atone—it will atone。 Have I not found her friendless; and cold; and fortless? Will I not guard; and cherish; and solace her? Is there not love in my heart; and constancy in my resolves? It will expiate at God’s tribunal。 I know my Maker sanctions what I do。 For the world’s judgment—I wash my hands thereof。 For man’s opinion—I defy it。”
But what had befallen the night? The moon was not yet set; and we were all in shadow: I could scarcely see my master’s face; near as I was。 And what ailed the chestnut tree? it writhed and groaned; while wind roared in the laurel walk; and came sweeping over us。
“We must go in;” said Mr。 Rochester: “the weather changes。 I could have sat with thee till morning; Jane。”
“And so;” thought I; “could I with you。” I should have said so; perhaps; but a livid; vivid spark leapt out of a cloud at which I was looking; and there was a crack; a crash; and a close rattling peal; and I thought only of hiding my dazzled eyes against Mr。 Rochester’s shoulder。
The rain rushed down。 He hurried me up the walk; through the grounds; and into the house; but we were quite wet before we could pass the threshold。 He was taking off my shawl in the hall; and shaking the water out o