ain he stopped)—“did not” (he proceeded hastily) “strike delight to my very inmost heart so for nothing。 People talk of natural sympathies; I have heard of good genii: there are grains of truth in the wildest fable。 My cherished preserver; goodnight!”
Strange energy was in his voice; strange fire in his look。
“I am glad I happened to be awake;” I said: and then I was going。
“What! you will go?”
“I am cold; sir。”
“Cold? Yes;—and standing in a pool! Go; then; Jane; go!” But he still retained my hand; and I could not free it。 I bethought myself of an expedient。
“I think I hear Mrs。 Fairfax move; sir;” said I。
“Well; leave me:” he relaxed his fingers; and I was gone。
I regained my couch; but never thought of sleep。 Till morning dawned I was tossed on a buoyant but unquiet sea; where billows of trouble rolled under surges of joy。 I thought sometimes I saw beyond its wild waters a shore; sweet as the hills of Beulah; and now and then a freshening gale; wakened by hope; bore my spirit triumphantly towards the bourne: but I could not reach it; even in fancy—a counteracting breeze blew off land; and continually drove me back。 Sense would resist delirium: judgment would warn passion。 Too feverish to rest; I rose as soon as day dawned。
Chapter 16
I both wished and feared to see Mr。 Rochester on the day which followed this sleepless night: I wanted to hear his voice again; yet feared to meet his eye。 During the early p