arrassed to be seen with my father。 He was severely crippled1 and very short; and when we would walk together; his hand on my arm for balance; people would stare。 I would inwardly squirm at the unwanted attention。 If he ever noticed or was bothered; he never let on。
善心可依(2)
It was difficult to coordinate our steps—his halting; mine impatient—and because of that; we didn’t say much as we went along。 But as we started out; he always said; “You set the pace。 I will try to adjust to you。”
Our usual walk was to or from the subway; which was how he got to work。 He went to work sick; and despite nasty weather。 He almost never missed a day; and would make it to the office even if others could not。 A matter of pride。
When snow or ice was on the ground; it was impossible for him to walk; even with help。 At such times my sisters or I would pull him through the streets of Brooklyn; NY; on a child’s sleigh to the subway entrance。 Once there; he would cling to the handrail until he reached the lower steps that the warmer tunnel air kept ice…free。 In Manhattan the subway station was the basement of his office building; and he would not have to go outside again until we met him in Brooklyn; on his way home。
When I think of it now; I marvel at how much courage it must have taken for a grown man to subject himself to such indignity2 and stress。 And at how he did it—without bitterness or plaint。
He never talked about himself as an object of pity; nor di